Day 22

Dear Daniel,

I dont understand why you ignored me so much. why you never want to talk to me now but im not going to wait for you to be able to talk to me. i loved you so much every single time i said i love you i ment it no matter how much you dont believe it …its true. you were the only guy that hurt me this much.. the only guy i was willing to let hurt me this much. the only guy i loved enough to wanted to try a long distance relationship with. but no matter wat i tried …email…texting ….you would answer me.. i understood when your phone broke but after than?? really ? was i really not that important to you.. does the time we were together mean shit to you. i felt like i deserved so much more from you but its fine .. im done. i loved you and i dont regret a single day that i did. you will always be in my heart and i hope  the best for you. and since you clearly never want to talk to me again then good bye..this is the last time ill mention your name on my blog

Day 8 – ive nev…

Day 8 – ive never really thought about my dream wedding. not something i see as a priority right now

Day 9 –  hehe

 

Day 10 –

 

Day 11-  This is my fav memory because this was right after me and daniel broke up during the summer and thats were i was pratically the sadess person ever…i cried so much but a couple weeks after i went to my aunts and thats were i had a big family reuion thing and just laughing and seeing my cousins made me feel soo much better

Day 12 – Single

Um its okay. im getting by. im not exactly happy with how things ended but i tried and thats all i can really say about the subject

Day 13 – Kelly Clarkson  she has always made music that i can relate to and songs that gets me through hard times

Day 14 – The Vampire Diaries and The Secret Circle

Day 15 – My Ipod lol i cant leave the house without it…it has my main source of entertainment

Day 16 – My short term goal is to get through school. im almost done. just finished my psych exam next is comparative government and polictics

Day 17 – I hope my future will be clear and more obvious. lol i hate having surprises thrown at me everyday but i dont think thatll happen xP

Day 18 – Opposite Sex

1) you guys can be such jerks lol. way to general but its true idk how you guys do it but you have that special way of just being rude and mean at any momment

2) know when to cool down. i hate how you guys can be just mad at a time and how its nearly impossible to do anything when your pissed

3) learn when to stop playing video games …its not your life

4) try to stay clean. its nice to smell something other than sweat

5) dont try to act cool in front of your friends …..being cool should come somewat naturally

and girls

1) its not bad to act like a guy sometimes

2) stop talking like a stuck up bitch

3) the whole looking up and down thing tyring to check out another girl or to “size” up the competition….yeah no doesnt work..kinda annoying

4) make up …really isnt important

5) doesnt take two hours to get ready….soo please try to move faster

Day 19 – go on a rollercoaster without being scared lol

Day 20 – Umm my blog name just kinda came to me lol …nothing else fit.. i mean its just me talking …just my life that im sharing with you…wat else could have i put

Day 21 – Max is the main thing that makes me happy

 

 

day 7 an animal i would keep as a pet :D

Day 2 – favorit…

Day 2 – favorite movie is still titanic

Day 3 Idea of a perfect date : would be something simple like staying home renting movies and just spending time together or going out on a walk at a park just to talk. im not someone that is hard to impress as along as there is some actual thought put into it

Day 4 Photo of my best friend

my mom

 

Bri

Day 5

umm something that makes me different from other people is that i tend to have completely different personalities with different groups of people, when im at home with my family i think some of my friends would be surprised with how i act. apparently i act more like a boy than i probably should but thats wat happens when your grow up with boys. im also more comfortable with my soccer team, i love them and i always act soo crazy and hyper on the field ….the guys on the team dont really see me as a girl because i spit where ever and im soo agressive on the field. when pratice is over theres pushing and tackling lol gosh i love them…….outside of them im pretty quiet and “innocent” to people at school….tyler thinks im a fricking angel. it varies with different people

Day 6

ive been thinking alot of how my last relationship ended and this song pretty much sums up how i felt about it

“Somebody That I Used To Know”(feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:] Now and then I think of when we were together Like when you said you felt so happy you could die Told myself that you were right for me But felt so lonely in your company But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness Like resignation to the end, always the end So when we found that we could not make sense Well you said that we would still be friends But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over
But you didn’t have to cut me off Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing And I don’t even need your love But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough No you didn’t have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don’t need that though Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
[Kimbra:] Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over Part of me believing it was always something that I’d done But I don’t wanna live that way Reading into every word you say You said that you could let it go And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know
[Gotye:] But you didn’t have to cut me off Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing And I don’t even need your love But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough And you didn’t have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don’t need that though Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
[x2] Somebody (I used to know) Somebody (Now you’re just somebody that I used to know)
(I used to know) (That I used to know) (I used to know) Somebody

Day One

right now my favorite song has to be Katy Perry’s Thinking of You. It might because of how ive been feeling lately but I still like it.

“Thinking Of You”

Comparisons are easily done Once you’ve had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one I still got the seed
You said move on Where do I go I guess second best Is all I will know
Cause when I’m with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes
You’re like an Indian summer In the middle of winter Like a hard candy With a surprise center How do I get better Once I’ve had the best You said there’s Tons of fish in the water So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips I taste your mouth He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I’m with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into…
You’re the best And yes I do regret How I could let myself Let you go Now the lesson’s learned I touched it I was burned Oh I think you should know
Cause when I’m with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes Oh won’t you walk through And bust in the door And take me away Oh no more mistakes Cause in your eyes I’d like to stay…

30-day challenge

lets see how long this will last

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Update

*sigh* another pretty boring weekend….i was suppose to have a soccer game saturday but it rained. and next week sat. Me and my cousin have decided that its tyler’s fault lol cause whenever he is going to come to see one of my games it always gets cancelled somehow. i tried telling him that in a jokey way but he took it seriously lol. we’re suppose to have a game but i really wanna go to the beach with my family…so i might not go to that one but gahhh i really hate missing games but i probably wont be playing as much because of the fricking amazing new plays we got now…its crazy just watching them play. and on to another thing…derek, uhh i dont know why im still talking to him. its so weird because he makes it weird to talk to him. cause he keeps saying that he likes me and gahhh he needs to stop… i mean it was nice talking to him at first but then he started to take it a lil far but he said he’ll stop so we’ll see how that goes. …….okayy different subject im kind of freaking out about this presentation i have to do for my ap politics class i have to talk for 25 mins about Iran and different aspects of its government as a review for the ap exam next month…its gonna be 20% of my grade considering its gonna be counted as my nine weeks exam….and i still have to worry about bring that classes grade and my psych class’s grade to a B so i can still go to Arizona for the summer, but i can do….i just have to stop pissing of my mom for the next two months and ill be good…..which is really hard.

 

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*sigh*

i feel so bad right now….tyler just asked me if i would be uncomfortable going to prom with him…..which i would because of how he’s been acting lately….with the way he touched my back and how he still has a picture of me on his phone…..then while we were talking on the phone he brought up how he would probably kiss me if i went with him and yeaa i cant go with him cause thatd be weird for me….but i still be bad about it cause he keep saying that he really wanted to go with me and he wasnt going to ask anyone else because it was he “dream” to go with me….then my mom is trying to get me to go with him because she thinks hes a really nice guy and shes still upset that i even broke up with him….i dont see why she cant understand how it will be akward for me….i dont know how i can be friends with him when he is trying to hard to get me to stay and how he constantly wants me to go back out with him